Infertility wounds...

Acupuncture Day 1

Fertility acupuncture cues to both men and women suffering from fertility problems. In women, regular acupuncture treatments stimulate the production of follicles by the ovaries. In men, acupuncture improves sperm quality, sperm motility, and sperm count. 

Medical studies have shown how acupuncture treatments can improve the thickness of the uterine lining and facilitate embryo implantation. That's why fertility acupuncture is often recommended to women who had a number of miscarriages or that are going through cycles of in vitro fertilization treatments. 

Acupuncture originated in ancient China thousands of years ago and it is still used successfully today to treat medical conditions and to prevent sickness. It is practiced by inserting needles into the body with the intent of promoting healing. Acupuncture body points, when stimulated by inserting an acupuncture needle, increase energy flow to specific organs. 

I want to "@%!!!" Scream!

What the "#@!" ?

I am so angry. I am so sad. I would no longer like to feel this pain inside me. Last night, I decided that I wasn't going to allow myself to feel this pain. I pulled it together and went to see my nephew perform at his school. He always brings a smile to my face. My husband stayed home - alone. He has his own way of going through this journey. Later that evening, we had a nice dinner filled with laughter and many positive stories with his family. When I found myself in bed next to him around 11PM, I just broke down. I cried so hard.
He said to me, "This could be positive...we will make more eggs and more embryos... " - how can he always be so positive? - I know he holds his pain deep inside. He is so strong. He is my rock.

Let's be honest here. INFERTILITY SUCKS. I "#@!!!! " hate it. I am sick of the ups and the downs. I am over all the medications and all the smiling positive Drs. and people at the fertility clinic. They are taking away all our savings (and family & friends that are helping) and we never get to see a result. Seriously here, I am a positive person. Many who know me will tell you so. With infertility, I cannot seem to be the least bit happy. There are just too many negatives. It is so difficult, yet I know we shouldn't give up!

Unexplained.

That's the diagnosis. That's all they can say. At least if we knew what was wrong, we could understand why we cannot have a baby.


How many times?

How many times do we go through these procedures? We will be starting the 4th in a month or two...

I read these stories of how it can take 10-15 times & it may never happen at all... I think to myself, "That can't be us." We cannot afford that and we cannot make it emotionally that long. It's exhausting.
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J a m i e

BFN

Today was the blood test...

Just got the phone call...

BFN:(((

Chin Up!

Time for an expresso!

NIGHT OF HOPE

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A celebration of the collective dedication to the infertility community.  Hope Awards honor those improving the lives of people with infertility.  The Night of Hope helps Resolve to reach more women and men in need of our support programs and services.