Nova --- thus we begin...:))))

NOVA

n. pl. no·vae (-v) or no·vas

A star that suddenly becomes much brighter and then gradually returns to its original brightness over a period of weeks to years.

 

 

 

 

 

This is the name of our new fertility clinic.  We have already begun this cycle of ivf with Dr. Schmidt. I have a sense of peace that I have not had in prior rounds. It almost feels like even though everything else around me seems to be crashing and bouncing all over the place, the process of this ivf is calm & positive.  There is something different...  

Please watch the link to see why we waited so long to get in at Nova and why we are so ecstatic that Dr. Schmidt is working with us!!!

Click this to watch Dr. Schmidt on this interview!

Happy Birthday to me...make a wish...!

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I wish I was pregnant. 

I wish we didn't have to deal with Infertility. I wish we all could afford the multiple rounds of IVF that we need... I wish IVF was a covered by insurance. I wish it didn't control my life, dictate my thoughts, make me count the days till I ovulate and make me continuously obsess month after month.  I wish people would finally understand that Infertility is a real medical condition. I wish I could get away with slapping people for asking "When are you going to have kids".  I wish I didn't have to research and think of Infertility and IVF everyday.  I wish I wasn't in therapy for how to deal with my infertility... I wish I knew which way to turn when I feel lost. My final wish is that this birthday as we begin this round of IVF that this will be our final round and I will become pregnant!!! 

On a jet plane

Today I write aboard my flight to Buffalo.  In about another 6 hours I will be reunited with my family.  Oh how I so look forward to it:)). These past three years have brought me into a state of some type of depression that I just cannot seem to shake. Then there are these brief moments when I'm with my family and I have this overwhelming sense of calmness and all the stress and worry leaves me...  This road is long and difficult.  I anticipate holding my cousins little girl in my arms and laughing with my Dad over a cup of tea.  I start my next round in 2 weeks on my 35th birthday!  I'm praying this will be the one.